The First Thing

Charles Kiser —  November 11, 2007 — 4 Comments

I came to the conviction in August that the last stretch of my apprenticeship (which ends in January) would have a different focus than the first part. During the first 12-14 months, I was consumed with ministry contexts and skill development. Julie and I have learned so much from Christ Journey and Sunrise, particularly in the area of creating communal pathways of spiritual formation for followers of Jesus. The Marvelous Light and City on a Hill retreats are two products of that training.

But I had a realization at the beginning of the fall: in the midst of all my labor and productivity, I had neglected my own spiritual well-being. In the process of facilitating spiritual formation in the lives of others, I had sidelined my own.

I’m constantly reminded of Robert Clinton’s thoughts in The Making of a Leader. The gist is that young leaders are often focused so much on ministry fruitfulness and productivity when the most important thing at the time is the image of Christ being formed within them. Yep, that’s me.

As a response to this realization, I decided to press into my own spiritual formation for the last six months of my training. I’ve created a host of spiritual formation projects—things that need to be fixed or formed in me by God.papa-prayer.jpg

One of my projects concerns my prayer life. I’ve been reading a book by Larry Crabb called The PAPA Prayer. It’s a guide for approaching God on the basis of relationship rather than on the basis of petition (asking for stuff that I want to get). Crabb’s thesis is that if one makes it his primary purpose to relate to God in prayer, all the other stuff falls in place.

Relating to God, according to Crabb, takes the form of Presenting yourself to God, Attending to how you’re viewing God, Purging yourself of any obstacles to relationship with God, and Approaching God as your ‘first thing’ (thus the PAPA acrostic).

The last A in the acrostic was the source of a spiritual epiphany for me today. In short, I had to admit to God that he had not been my ‘first thing’ in a long time. Other things had taken God’s place: aspiration for success in ministry; desire for happiness in my marriage; concern for my own peace of mind and psychological well-being. If I’m honest, God has been the means of reaching all of those ends; God has not been the end. I’ve been missing the Provider for the provisions.

I can’t tell you how freeing it was to admit that to God, and to approach him again as my ‘first thing’.

Charles Kiser

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Dallas, TX. Church Planter with Storyline Christian Community. Equipper and Coach with Mission Alive.

4 responses to The First Thing

  1. 

    good stuff! proof, once again, that we were separated at birth.

  2. 

    The PAPA prayer is a fantastic read.

    Thanks for sharing your struggles. I totally identify with you on this. One of my teachers at Lipscomb, John York, used to tell his preaching students all the time that whenever we place “doing” above “being,” we’re in big trouble. It hit me between the eyes when he said it the first time, and here I am six years later still trying to figure out how to put “be” above “do.”

  3. 

    You’re in for a good ride! another good book to read among many: East This Book by Eugene Petersen. Keep doing what you are doing!

    Love’s Prayers…

  4. 

    glad God gave you that “word check” (a la Clinton). i think it’s always tempting for us youngsters to focus on the “action” now rather than the “being” now & God sits back and shakes His head…hopefully with a smile. i like your Dallas pic.

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